Monday, June 28, 2010


A couple of moments in my life that I'll never forget, and sort of have a hard time describing the emotion behind them because they are so big and life changing are... the mission, Marrying the one I love, having children, and today I added one more. LASIK EYE SURGERY!!!!

I went in to Hoopes vision this morning blind as a bat and came out good as new. Right now I am seeing everything contact free and glasses free. What a blessing it is to be able to see on my own. Today I was able to check off one of the things on my bucket list. "Get eyes fixed" and I can only thank my awesome mother and father in law for providing this miracle and it is a miracle.
I married into a family full of love, understanding, and such giving hearts... so thank you, thank you, thank you for this blessing Kim and Frank.

Just over a year ago I got a phone call from Ryans parents and they both wanted to talk to me. They said that they wanted to pay for me to get my eyes fixed. At that point there was silence on my end because I started to cry. To make a long story short and not go into detail about my issues of being indebted to others I had a hard time accepting their offer but after a while we decided to go forward with it.

But right about that time I got pregnant with Tommy so I needed to wait till he was born and done nursing so that time finally came and today was the big day.

The surgery was a breeze (after they gave me a Valium) it was short and painless. And for the first little while it was hard for me to open my eyes cuz they were so sensitive to the light, but I came home and took a nap (a 3 hour nap, wow that Valium really does a number on you I guess) and I woke up a new person. My eyes felt awesome, they didn't hurt or feel as sensitive and I was all rested up. Anyhoo it was a day I will NEVER forget and will always be grateful for. I truly appreciate the primary song that says "He gave me my eyes that I might see the color of butterfly wings..." Really I've been looking out the window all day long at every little detail and saying to myself, These are my real eyes seeing this. I'm so happy!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


I don't really know what I'm posting about right now but I've got some thoughts floating around in my head that have me thinking I need to get them out somewhere... so here I am...

1. We live in a world of mistakes... some deliberate but most of the time we mess up and then hate ourselves for not making better choices, and somehow we turn right back around and make the same mistakes over and over again. We ALL make mistakes.

2. The first commandment is to... "love God with all thy heart, and the second like unto it, love thy neighbor as thyself".

3. Elder Uchdorf said in April conference that the Savior "spoke of love...We can spend our days obsessing about the finest details of life, the law, and long lists of things to do; but should we neglect the great commandments, we are missing the point and we are clouds without water, drifting in the winds, and trees without fruit.

4. So what's the point?? We all make mistakes, and that means others make mistakes too. I know I'm quick to judge and slow to show mercy, but Elder Uchdorf goes on to say that "everyone is walking his or her own difficult path. As disciples of Jesus Christ, our Master, we are called to support and heal rather than condemn....It is unworthy of us as Christians to think that those who suffer deserve their suffering." We are commanded to "mourn with those that mourn and comfort those that stand in need of comfort."

5. I think it fitting (at least for me) that one of the quotes in this months visiting teaching lesson says "It is not possible to make real change all by ourselves. Our own willpower and our own good intentions are not enough. When we make mistakes or choose poorly, we must have the help of our Savior to get back on track. We partake of the sacrament week after week to show our faith in His power to change us." Repentance.

6. Charity, the pure love of Christ. To see others as Heavenly Father sees them, and might I add ourselves as well.

7. So we all make mistakes, sometimes our own mistakes may seem like a mountain to overcome, I know I feel that way, I set a goal to do better at something and turn around and mess up again. I looked up the word love in the index of the scriptures and it seemed to encompass the whole gospel. Elder Uchdorf finishes his talk by saying "As we extend our hands and hearts toward others in Christlike love, something wonderful happens to us, Our own spirits become healed, more refined, and stronger. We become happier, more peaceful, and more receptive to the whisperings of the Holy Spirit.

8. I believe that!!!

This is my dad's brother Joe. In my eyes, he is a great example of love, I'm sure in many others eyes as well.

Monday, June 14, 2010

how babies are delivered

Kate " mom I just had a baby"
mom "oh really how'd you do that?"
Kate "it was in my tummy"
mom "so then what happened"
Kate " it just popped out, and here she is, isn't she cute"

Lizard in bed

Last night Kate started to cry at 2:30ish and so I asked her what was wrong and she said

"It's moving"

"What's moving"

"It went down there (pointing to a crevice in beside her bed)"

"What went down there?"

"The lizard"

so she came in our bed while I went and turned on her light and checked it out for her, I don't really know what I was looking for but I checked anyway. So I told her I got rid of it so she went back to bed just fine..

Tonight I had to check for the lizard to reassure her that it was gone..

Funny what we dream about right?